So I'm already seriously conflicted over whether or not to call my mother today. And first thing this morning I get an e-mail from my grandmother saying she's "disappointed" I didn't go to my sister's baby shower (which I couldn't because I was working) and asking me to call my Mom today.

Instantly I feel resent. Why should I have to call her just because it's May? She never calls me. She hasn't been a mother to me for nearly 2 fucking years. In my opinion, a mother doesn't disown her child on a whim and then demand constant apologies to win her love back.

Fuck you. I'll call when I damn well feel like it. And I shouldn't have to do all the fucking work just to have a mother. What I regret about not being in touch with my Mom is not being in touch with my little brother. The rest seems to be working out pretty damn ok without you, thank you very much. I'll make sure I shower you with praises for deciding to squeeze me out and then ignore me another day.